My new confidence

I have noticed my new confidence.  I do hope this new confidence lasts. I have been listening to subliminal messages a few times a day for a couple of weeks now and I think it must be working. Something is anyway. It’s like it actually feels good to be me. The best part is ,that I don’t care one little bit what anyone thinks of me. Why I ever did I don’t know. Anyway, I don’t know what people are really thinking. Maybe there thinking nice things and not judgements and put me downs.

  Even though  its now Autumn the season that depresses me, I’m feeling good. I have wasted  so much of my life caring about what others think of me or more importantly caring about what I THINK others think about me. Truth is I don’t know what anyone is thinking and who cares anyway. I was actually pushing people away by being so self conscious and unconfident. Some people may say my positive results from the subliminal messages are all in my head! Well I sure do hope so. After all that is the target and the problematic lack of confidence has always been in my head so what better way to cure it! Anyway I feel great and that’s what matters.

Just like the caterpillar transforms into the beautiful butterfly, I too have transformed and emerged from my shell and turned into a confident wonderful proud woman.

Hope we talk again soon xx

(Photo is my own and taken by me)

Today I start

So today I blog.

Blog about whatever is on my mind at the time.

A blog where I can share my thoughts with total strangers.

A blog where maybe you can even relate.

So today is the day I press the button “publish”.

My name is Jodie.

Pleased to meet you.

I love to take photos and ponder over my thoughts. I think  lets combine the two together.

So here I am . I am ready to share . sharing my thoughts is something I don’t normally do.

Here goes…

Well, so today I wonder, Why? Why does that same lady stand me up with saying she is buying something from me on our local buy swap sell sight yet never does?Four times now this same lady has done this to me. Is it some game she is playing or is there some memory problem with her? I will no longer reply to her. I wonder if I am the only one she does this to. I live in a very small town and I am a bit of a loner. I was picked on as a kid all threw school for being too thin so I do tend to keep to myself and I very much lack confidence. I find it hard to trust others enough to open up and let them  get to know me. My de facto husband knows way more people around here than I do , yet he has only been here since he met me ten years ago where I have lived here all my life. I do get lonely but yet I do actually like my own company. In the last couple of weeks I have been trying to change my lack of confidence and I have made some progress already.

well, these are my thoughts for today. Nice to meet you. I will check back real soon. Thanks for your time. xx                                                                   (Photo is my own. Taken by me)